Still in the Wrestling

Over the past few days I have been pondering the story in Genesis chapter 32 about Jacob wrestling with the man who many scholars believe was God himself. Jacob tells him "I'm not letting you go until you bless me." Something about that rings so true with me right now. We have prayed endlessly for God to bless us with children. We see a baby as a blessing from God and have been praying for that blessing. I feel so drawn towards Jacob's courage, endurance, and faith. I am still in the wrestling. I am still enduring and trying to remain courageous and have faith while wrestling with God. I feel inspired to be determined. I am determined not to let go until He blesses me. I know that wrestling with God results in scars (like Jacob's hip) and I am willing to bear them if it means God's blessing. I feel inspired to plant my feet and wait for the blessing.