Follistim

Last night I gave myself my 7th shot of Follistim on our first (and hopefully only :-) IUI cycle. We started doing shots every night (150 each until last night which we lowered to 125), and ultra sounds and blood work every other day last Tuesday, October 14th. As of today I have 5 measurable follicles (around "17") which the doctor seems to think is great. I don't know what to think or feel. I love how optimistic he is and since this is our first IUI I don't have anything to compare it to. Since he seems pleased, I desperately want to be hopeful and at the same time I can't bear the thought of being disappointed yet again! He told me on Sunday that they hope to see 2-4 follicles by the time they trigger ovulation and as of today I have 5!!! And I'm still at least two days away from our trigger shot! I feel concerned about multiples (5 babies is a lot of babies! The potential complications scare me worse than the thought of raising 5 kids scares me!) because I am completely opposed to "reduction." However, I want to take whatever the Lord will give me! If the doctor thinks that 5 is fine, then I think 5 is fine. For all I know it takes 5 follies to make one baby and that's OK by me :-) The worst part is waiting. I am so hopeful that this will work and so anxious at the same time. Lord, please give me patience and peace. I so desperately need it!